These were my thoughts and plans PRE-veto meeting. Didn't have time to elaborate on anything but I'll post now so you can all appreciate how poorly everything ended up:
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I didn't want Hayley to win Veto at all. Hayley told Kaysar that she was nervous she could be the replacement nominee and she was right about that. Kaysar pretended he was nervous as well. Hayley came outta NO WHERE and beasted the start of that comp. Kaysar told me he was gonna go all night and day, and even without Ally's help I knew that could be good enough to win. I thought Kaysar winning would've been great for me
Heaven was a better target than Keith by far. Keith is useless. Heaven needs to go. I planned on telling Keith that most of what I said in my speech was dramatized to hide the fact that I was targeting Heaven over him. Never got the chance to talk to him though
I came up with a plan to convince Keith to throw the Veto. Keith surely knows his only chance of surviving the block is against Heaven. He probably thought I was stupid for putting him on the block against her if I wanted him out, but I wanted her out over him at that time. I felt like it was in Keith's best interest to throw the money portion of the comp before Heaven could beat him at the pledge portion. I shared this plan with Kaysar and got him to send Keith a PM about throwing it. Whether Keith listened or not doesn't matter, Heaven ended up doing nothing at all
Kaysar won which was perfect. Memphis and Lane were VERY nervous that he would cut a deal with Heaven and take her off, but I knew he wouldn't do that because of our deal and our conversations. In like, the last hour of being able to use the Veto, Kaysar messaged me and told me he was considering taking Keith off. He said he wanted to make it seem like he was against me still in order to hide our alliance, and neither of us thought it would matter since Heaven would leave anyway. I wasn't a huge fan of the idea because then I'd have to break trust with Hayley by throwing her up, but I was on AIM mobile at the beach and wasn't able to talk to him about it much at all. I had to kinda just roll with it. I thought things would still work out and Heaven would leave........at the time!!
Prior to any of this, Ally reached out to me during the me vs. Jon eviction and wanted to officially form an alliance since we had been more or less working together. I told her it was a great idea and we ended up forming a four person alliance involving me, her, Lane, and Memphis
Kaysar used the Veto on Keith which wasn't a huge deal to me. I threw up Hayley and wanted to talk to her about how she would be perfectly fine in an eviction against Heaven, everyone knew that. So I thought things were set in stone
NOPE!!!
I was so pissed when I logged on and saw what happened. SOOOOO pissed. I hate Heaven. I hated her speech and I hated her gifs. I hate that she says ya instead of you. I hate that she wished me 'gluck' and I hate that she used a (: at the end.
The worst part was that Kaysar using the Veto on Keith inadvertently fucked EVERYTHING up so badly. If I couldn't get Heaven out, I would've been perfectly fine with getting Keith out. I was pumped when I won HoH knowing that one of those two should've been leaving. NOT THE CASE!
So now I had to nominate a member of my new alliance of four since there wasn't a single other option. It was 100% gonna be Ally no matter what. I put her up with no hesitation. She was mad! I don't ever blame anyone for being mad that they're on the block, but I don't understand why Hayley and Allison were so SHOCKED. Despite having a loose alliance with both, I haven't been incredibly close with either. Memphis and I keep talking about how we don't understand why those two are always shocked that they go up as pawns. What do they expect really? They openly admit to being completely out of the loop in this game. From most players' POV's, those two have done very little throughout the game. It's a bit annoying that they think they can float by with no repercussions from anyone
So anyway, Ally IM'd me and was mad. Her first IM was "I knew there was a guys alliance." Okay Ally great work everyone has known since day four. I don't even see how that comes into play here. Because I nominated her over Memphis and Lane? We were all four in an alliance Ally! I didn't exactly have a choice. She said she was pissed because she realized she was fourth in our alliance and was at the bottom of every group she has joined. She told me that "this is crap" that she was the one of those three that I put up. WHY IS THAT CRAP! She's nice and all and I get why she's upset to find out she's fourth...but I'm sorry BUT, she kinda brought it upon herself with her floater gameplay all game
I told her I thought she had a much better chance to stay against Hayley than Memphis or Lane which I believe was true. Hayley proved to be a good competitor for the first time in this challenge. Everyone knows she's very tight with Heaven. If Keith/Kaysar wanted Heaven gone badly enough, they should've considered evicting Hayley over Ally. It would've been way smarter. I told Ally I'd talk to them to try to convince them, but as always, I didn't see either one on AIM all day. I didn't get a chance to talk to them so Memphis/Lane folded and went with the majority. RIP Ally
Ally also said this:
i suppose this means i will be leaving? cause rumour has it you guys told heaven a guy would go up and here i am on the block? im so confused nick.
What...does this even mean. I didn't understand that at all. Where did this rumor come from that "us guys" told Heaven a guy would go up? Who are "you guys"? Lane and Memphis? Why would me, Lane, and Memphis, tell Heaven that I would put a guy (lane or memphis) up after Heaven took herself off? I don't know where this rumor came from or what the hell it even means, I didn't talk to Heaven once after she used her prize and I wouldn't have told her what I planned on doing. This rumor makes so little sense that I imagine it came from Keith's mouth who has no idea what is happening in this game
I've been very ranty and ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~bitchy~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ in these past few confessionals and I apologize for that (: . It was a very frustrating position and I hate that Keith and Heaven are still here. I have considerably less options going forward at this point, but I'm gonna do whatever I can. I can see myself leaving this week or next but we shall see. If Kaysar, Memphis, or Lane wins HoH then things will get back on track
- Heaven wins HoH - Myself and Lane or Memphis are nominated - Heaven wins Veto - Keith and Hayley evict me and Heaven evicts me in a tie if there is one. All of the surviving people that I nominated last week (::::
If I lose I go home. Unfortunately it's pretty much as simple as that at this point. I'll try what I can if I lose, but my chances aren't looking good. Gotta win this
eeeesh. I dunno about that time. I think I did the puzzle in an okay time but I have no idea about the password part. That part seems like something Heaven would be able to do quickly. This site takes a few seconds to load on my laptop so every failed password was very costly. I feel like I was a slow poke on that part, hard to say. Out of my hands now for better or worse