Episode Five

[kathy]

I didn't initially want to backdoor Ryan last round, but the way that Ryan, Lane, and Benedict all came to me desperately trying to keep him off the block made me super uncomfortable.  It was a big move, and I know that I pissed off at least Lane.  I'm not quite sure if Benedict is mad at me or not, but I will feel VERY insecure if Lane wins an immunity.  I was hoping to not increase the size of my target last round, but now that I have been HoH twice, on the block twice, and performed the first backdoor of the game, I am probably on most people's radars.  I think last round helped me to improve my position with Hayley, Heaven, Keith, and Nick though (and maybeee Allison).  I'm hoping that I have enough relationships in this game to keep me safe next round, but I honestly have no idea what will happen.  I just hope somebody that I trust can win an HoH!  Going forward, I can hopefully slip off the radar a little this round and somebody else can make some enemies, but I'm definitely an easy target alongside Keith.

ugh.  I think I'm fucked.

[kathy]

This is dumb. I hate not knowing who has power. I'm going to rank the cast from who I least think is HoH to who is most likely.

11. Jon - duh

10. Hayley - hahaha. I love her, but she sucks at challenges.

9. Allison - I have no idea where I stand with her. I saved her last week, but she could still be out to get me. Luckily, she is also bad at challenges.

8. Aaryn - I am pretty sure she is pissed at me and is against me. I wanted her to vote out Lane last week, and I don't think I handled it very well. At the very least, I need to do some damage control.

7. Keith - For somebody that hosts games, he's pretty bad at challenges. If he won it, I'm safe, I think...

6. Benedict - Also hasn't been a challenge master, but he could have done well. I hope I'm still in good graces with him after last week, but I honestly am not sure. I tried to explain myself the best that I could, and I hope he knows that I'm not after him.

5. Memphis - Just from talking to him today, I don't think he won, but he could be playing me. I could definitely see Memphis putting me up because I am pretty sure he is associated with Lane and Ryan. I'm trying to get on better terms with him though.

4. Lane - I know I'm on bad terms with him, but we are being friendly. There is no way that Aaryn didn't tell Lane that I wanted him out, so I am just crossing my fingers that he doesn't win it.

3. Nick - The kid is due for a challenge win. I'm fairly certain that he wouldn't put me up though.

2. Heaven - I think I patched things up with her pretty well last week, and hopefully she trusts me. This challenge seems like it is right up her ally.

1. Kaysar - This bitch is never around, and I hate it. I am hoping that he made enough enemies last week so that he isn't considering putting me up this week. I think that if he wins, then Jon + one of the boys from the other house will be up.

I actually think that I could have a round without being on the block. Lane is my biggest threat right now, which sucks. I really like Lane, but his relationship with Ryan split us up. I don't think there is any way to repair the damage, so I need him out asap.

[kathy]

HOW THE HELL DID I NOT THINK OF USING THE STUPID CATHY KARTOON IN MY CONFESSIONAL UNTIL NOW???

HOW THIS ROUND WILL GO.



ALSO, I'M DRUNK

#DRUNKREVELATIONS

[kathy]

Lmao at the nominations. I wonder who is HoH?

Kaysar couldn't have made it any more obvious...

[kathy]

I'm kinda starting to think that Keith might be HoH, but whatever, it doesn't really matter.

I would really like to be able to save Benedict, but it seems like most people want him out. I know that Benedict is a bigger target for a lot of the big characters in this game than Memphis is, so I see Memphis as more dangerous. Plus, Memphis has no allegiance to me whereas I think Benedict does. Additionally, Benedict is right in the middle of the Keith-Kaysar-Jon mumbo-jumbo and I'd like to keep those four feuding as long as possible. Memphis is a nice guy that will be better at getting allies than Benedict.

I think Benedict is a lost cause though.