Round #9

[Heaven Afrika]

1) I LOVE that I won HoH even though I kinda beat the system. I don't think anyone did the same thing as me lol but I couldn't risk it in case someone else did so I took the shortcut to get things done quicker.

2) I ENJOY that I am getting to put Nick up on the block. When he put me up last round he told me that he would understand if I stuck him right back up if I survived the week. If Nick were to stay THIS week then I would feel the same and it would be a fun battle between he and I to the end.

3) I DISLIKE sticking Memph up b/c he really really was and is still someone I like in the game and could see myself being friends with outside it. But I CANT look past last round espesh when every move i make now has to mean something in order to make it to the finals. Memph understood where I was coming from when we spoke and told me last night that he DID "play with the idea" of booting me.

4) I STRESSED to Lane and Memph that my target this week is Nick and I want to see him go. Lane not going up is b/c he's statistically weaker in comps than Memphis and Nick and would have a smaller chance of winning to save either of em. I'm praying that noms don't change b/c if they don't I think Nick will go. I only need 2 votes to make it happen.

5) I STILL am a lil fuzzy on what I want to see happen for the end of my game. I don't know who I want to sit beside.. I don't THINK this will be a bitter jury (surprisingly haha) but you never know. I could take Hayls and feel confident in my chances but you can't deny the girl is sweet as a button and could win over the hearts of the voters. I need to start thinking about this and what I wanna do..

[Heaven Afrika]

3 SECONDS...... 3 SECONDS!

NOW.. this MIGHT be an okay thing but I am not for certain. Kaysar has acted on board with me and he seems close to Keith. Keith and I BOTH want Nick out so he should just leave nommies the same and my target should go right? You would think he'd just be all game to roll with us and go deep.. WELL.. it seems a lil TOO easy and there is some reasons to be nervous.

Remember how Nick won last week and didn't nom Kaysar AT ALL? Yeah not even a replacement? ETCH A SKETCH! I went back and looked at the PM chats with us and Kaysar didn't say much re: Nick being the boot. What if Nick and him have an "UNDERSTANDING" and will just use each other to take out the others allies.. meaning he's going to take Nick down? IT'S SMART but that fks my stuff up!

All of that leads me to think.. WHAT IF the plan all along was for Kaysar or Nick to win and take down Keith so that I WAS the prime target and EVERYONE was in on it. OH MY LANTA! Now I sound like a paranoia conspiracy theorist hahah.

B/c of all of this I sent Kaysar a PM since I havent seen him on AIM the past day or 2. I talked to Memphis and Lane and said I was sending it and wanted to make sure that Nick stayed up and left no matter what.

[Heaven Afrika]

Paranoia GONE! I was starting to get a lil scared last night as I kept thinking about last round. Kaysar and Nick coulda made a deal with em both in power but it looks like it wasn't strong enough for this round! Nick is a great talker and was my strongest competition in the challs. It's sad to see someone deserving go but after last week scaring me straight.. I NEED to get my head into the game and get my ass to the finals and this is my best move for the week.

I think I got the votes locked for Nick to go. Keith and Kaysar SHOULD vote out Nick but I've heard that Hayls is a lil iffy on the idea of Nick going. I hope she votes him out but if not that's a-okay. I only need 2 votes and I'll break the tie if I need to.

Next week terrifies me to no end but that good news is that there cant be any backdooring. EVERYONE will play in PoV so I will get my shot no matter who wins HoH and no matter who is nominated. I gotta focus and keep my eye on the prize.

[Heaven Afrika]

I am p sure Hayley was the 1 vote that kept Nick in the game. Hayley is WORKING the Jury and I could see her getting Nicks vote. She IS a lil sweetie and would be tough to beat in the end just b/c she has that kind aura about her that peeps could find too hard to resist. I wanted to take her to the end but now I am second thinking my decision. It is going to be a rough rough ride for me to the end now b/c I know the 2nd that I slip up, anyone could take the chance to boot my ass and get away with it (WITHOUT question).

I am looking at the peeps on the Jury and the only ones I had good enough connections with were Kathy and Ally Dubz. Nick might not be a bitter player and could hear me out but I dunno. I NEVER EVER spoke to Jon b/c he was never around the second half of his game so I know he won't bother with me. Benny is also a person I spoke A LOT to early, but it's been a while since he's been gone so I am a lil blurry on where his vote could go or what he could think of me now.

I just got to keep trucking on and hope that I win when it counts and make the best decisions for my game b/c every lil thing matters now with only 6 peeps left in the house.