Round 12!

[Hayley Luscott]

I made this video before the veto and then went here and found out we didn't have confesh access. So this is from a day ago before I did the veto and the results came out! I'll probably write another confesh tonight after work.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jt90B1fgcg8&feature=youtu.be

[Hayley Luscott]

G'Day and welcome to another beautiful day in the BB Rise and Fall House! Ugh, I love how i post a whole confessional stressing out about a decision that I end up not even having to make! UGH.

After I had made my confessional I thought about it and went into the Veto with the goal of keeping Heaven in the game. I've gone too far in the game with her to back out now. PLUS, more importantly, keeping Heaven in the game would ensure that I would be in the final two since both Keith and Heaven would want each other out!

We had the veto competition and it was REALLY difficult! We basically had to remember everything that happened throughout the entire game! I actually got a big help from Keith. He had a voting chart and comp history that he let me see! So I was able to prepare myself a lot for this veto for once. I knew he was doing this thinking that if I won I would evict Heaven... and I went ahead and let him think that lololol! Ugh, however we also had to put together the names of the different comps we did and my memory got TOTALLY fuzzy on that. I ended up just giving up and guessing at the end.

And the results came out and of COURSE Heaven won again! I mean, I'm excited for her that she won but I also just wanted to be able to win something for once. I also wanted to have the eviction power in my hands and be able to physically MAKE the strategical decision of voting out Kaysar and show people that I was making moves to ensure I was getting to the end.

Heaven had her veto ceremony and removed herself from the block. She made comments during the veto ceremony though that it was a do or die situation for her though... which makes me nervous. Does she think I was going to evict her? I have no idea and I hope she doesn't because, although I thought about it, in the end I was staying loyal. I wonder if she thought it looked suspicious that I was kept safe this round by Keith. Ugh, I probably should have talked to Heaven after the ceremony! I just didn't think I needed to but ugh, obviously I should have.

So now I'm up on the block with Kaysar and Heaven has the power to evict one of us. I'm thinking that strategically if Heaven is gonna comp queen her way to the finals she's gonna want to bring me since I'm weaker. However... if what she said was true at the ceremony was true and she thinks our alliance is all for shit, she could also bring Kaysar because maybe she wants to go up against him in the finals. And LOL omg if Heaven and Kaysar have a secret aliance I'm gonna look like such a fool.

I wonder if I should talk to Heaven before the vote and ensure her that I was planning on keeping her. But... I'm fearing that will make me look even more shady! Ugh, I'm in a pretty horrid position right now!

I just gotta sit here and pray to lord baby jesus that Heaven votes to evict Kaysar and bring me to the finals because she thinks she can beat me. Oh god. I'm gonna be so devastated if I get voted out this round especially since I thought THIS round I was guaranteed a spot in the final three regardless of the outcome! Ughhhhhhhhhhh I'm so nervous!