Since you've already got a close connection with Heaven, I'll do my best to give you a little insight as to who I am as a person and what I value. Since this can't be two-sided, I hope you at least leave satisfied with my thoughts.
In ORGs, and in real life, I've always had a hard time with small talk. I make bad first impressions, because the general dance of having a mundane conversation is really frustrating to me for some reason. I have no problem bypassing small talk altogether and getting into a more mind-driven discussion. I'm learned to deal with it in the real world, but for some reason in ORGs I would rather make bad impressions and not have to deal with small talk than otherwise. A lot of this game was small-talk. The lines were black-and-white and the same people were winning comps, so there was never any desire for anyone to get to know other people on an intimate level. It made things much more difficult for me and pretty early on I decided that I was going to enjoy myself at all costs. So my least favorite aspect was the lack of open dialogue. In just about every ORG I play, I always have a poor start. I'm ostracized or outcast or something, and I am a pro and wiggling my way back into the fold slowly. But this is the first time I couldn't do that because no one was interested in developing any more relationships than the ones already formed. So I had to adapt my strategy and just accept the role I had been assigned- a delusional pariah. I was anything but that and I've had to keep my mouth shut until this FTC just so I could be here.
I also like to consider myself pretty good at competitions. I actually got 2nd in about 6-7 competitions toward the jury phase of the game, which was incredibly frustrating. Many times it was just by seconds. I was angry with myself because if I could just get a good comp win, I think I would've had smooth sailing and I wouldn't have to fight for respect like I'm having to do now. The best moment in the game for me was my F4 HoH win where I just killed it. It felt nice to be immune for once (I hadn't won a comp previously since Week 2).
I don't think these are really thoughts I've shared with anyone, but I felt as though it was important if I were to ever earn your vote. Thanks for the Q .
Post by Heaven Afrika on Aug 4, 2014 11:09:15 GMT -5
Alllyyyyyyyyy! Thank you mucho for your comments!
My favorite moment of this game was finding that Special PoV! It was so much fun haha. There were a lot of tasks in trying to get it but it was all worth it b/c that PoV helped me and my allies' games TREmendously. In the game there was a code word of sorts. After posting a DR and going back and reading I had found an image in my DR of what appeared to be a black Rupert Boneham.. lolol. I think the word was "p.lant" b/c he was standing by a cactus and screaming it. When I found it and posted it, I got instructions to search the board for a "locked box". It took me about an hour to find it and it was located in the "RNF Seasons" words to the left side of the board in those lil headings.
After I got the box is when I had to start doing a whole bunch of lil tasks and recording my proof that I was doing them. My first task was to make a public thread and get at LEAST 5 other houseguests to post in it which was my Life Alert thread haha. After that I had to talk about PMS with another houseguest for at LEAST 5 minutes and I talked about it with you haaa (1 of the lolsiest chats of the game!). My next task was that I had to link 5 different houseguests a different video (they were assigned to me and were a lil outlandish lol) and tell them that the video reminded me of them. My next task was to make a group chat and invite 2 different houseguests and post that freaky "Overly Attached Girlfriend" on loop and then leave lol. My final task to get the Special PoV was posting over and over until a key finally popped up, not knowing the number or anything! I had a lot of fun working for it and it really helped in the long run!
My least favorite moment of the game was the F3 when I had to make the decision in whether or not to take Hayley to the end or vote her out. It was something I struggled with b/c I was p close with Hayls in this game and knew that she had been playing her own game and was more socially capable than people gave her credit for. I had taken another ally out in Kaysar a round before by being the sole vote to evict him, b/c he was my physical threat in the F3 (we had traded off comps for a bit in the later part of the game) and I couldn't risk him sending me out as he was capable of winning the comps in my eyes, more than Keith and more than Hayls.
So when I was faced with Keith and Hayls, I looked at Hayls as a stronger social player b/c of my own perspective and I feared her strength to put herself over here in the finals. If this game was ALL about personal feelings then Hayls would be here right now and not Keith but I thought it was the smarter move but Keith is now showing me that he's p good at talking himself up! It just makes it more competitive! Thanks Dubz!